Farewell

We haven't been together for a long time... One sem, was it? But one semester was enough for me to label you as a shy, average guy.

But it was just tonight that I've got to know you. Well, based on your friends and family, I got to know you a little better. There... "a little better" is the term. But you couldn't blame me though, could you? You rarely talk. When I approach you, you either respond directly to any question and smile OR you smile, then respond directly. Either way, I never could've guessed there was a problem. I never thought you suffered from depression. Depression that eventually lead to your untimely demise... which pained your family so much because you never gave them the chance to help you get through all of these.

I talked with your mother. With your sister even. Though they already accepted what had happened... though it was painful for them to respect your decision to end your own life, they still stand restless to find the truth behind all your suffering. Restless to find the REAL problem.

I couldn't do anything for you now, except for my prayers. During the one sem that you had been attending in my class, you could have participated, asked, or even approached me... I could've helped in whatever way I could have... had I known you needed help.

But that's just one side of it.

I could have been sensitive enough. I could have approached you more... Reached out more... Then this wouldn't have happened. I could have helped you in your academic weakness. Or anything at all.

Now, I'm really sad over what happened. Life is beautiful, you know. Even if it's full of obstacles, problems, pain. But that's just the half of it. I'm just sad that you weren't able to appreciate the other, beautiful half to keep going on.

I just wish your happiness wherever you may be right now. The happiness that couldn't be found in this world. Farewell Eusie, and rest well.

restore factory settings

Haaaaay... And I thought this option is found only in cellphones...

So this is what's keeping me preoccupied this holy week (aside from spending Holy Thursday @ Portofino with my family). Backup files, reformat HD, partition, reinstall OS... Until I found out that it was way convenient to use the Product Recovery disk (that came along with my laptop).

So there... Got to restore the factory settings of my lappy. I was just so happy that there is no need to me to download the needed drivers and utilities. (Happeeeeeeee meeeeeeeeee... )

And why undergo the hassle? The busy teacher just got so sloppy that she used her own laptop in checking student projects (from CDs and flash disks). The CDs are okay, I think. It was the flash drives that were mounted on my system that led to the attack of monstrous malware (viruses, worms, trojans, ug uban pang lang mananap). These monsters work like cons... They were able to pass through the nose of my antivirus because they altered the system date (changed it to 2002... tsk tsk). The result? My antivirus just kept asking for a new license key! When I adjusted the system date, my antivirus screamed (as in literally screamed) detecting hundreds (ok, just exaggerating) of malware but couldn't disinfect and/or delete these monsters (just kept on displaying "access denied" or something). Well anyway, it became so annoying because every time I closed the message box, another one will pop up! And it goes on and on, unless these monsters are defeated.

Oh well...

So here I am, blogging (more of like documenting what happened hehehe). The monsters got defeated (finally!) by reformatting the HD (works everytime).

Lesson learned? Never to give projects to students again!!!! LOL

03.13.08

Ok, it's been a hell of a week at school. Last minute preparations, changes, addition to the plans... Arrrggghhhh!
Anyway, I hope to see this event successful.

To the staff from the CompE Department, keep up the good work guys! Let's not get the pressure and stress affect our everyday crazy lives!

After this... grades napud! Waaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!

missing you

been very busy lately
you in your work
me in mine
little chance of seeing each other
let alone to enjoy each other's company
thought t'was alright
til this idle night
cold
alone
...
then i realized

i miss you
...

03.10.08

Very tiring day? Week, should I say. Finals week and it's getting closer to freedom. Vacation! White sand beaches! Long sleepless nights get compensated at last.

But back to reality first.

Papers, left and right, are waiting to be checked. Class records, waiting to be updated. Final exams, grades, projects, defense... Ahhhh... THE LIFE of a teacher. Been wanting to escape... even for a day.

Not to mention MY own assignments. This I've endured to do, but barely. THE LIFE of a student.

I definitely, need a break.